When I was in High school, I had this one good friend that I spent a lot of time with. However, her mother didn’t like me. I didn’t know that at first but when my friend did tell me and that she wasn’t allowed to be friends with me any longer, the reason she gave has kind of haunted me since. 30-ish years of dwelling on this one line.
“You say things for a reaction”
What? It was meant in a negative way. It made me stop and think about what I said, not 100% of the time, I do suffer from foot in mouth disease and tend to make things awkward, but overall I started to really think before I spoke and thought about the audience I was saying those things too.
However, over the years, I realized this isn’t a bad thing. Her mother might have thought it was, but it is who I am.
Growing up my family and I would try to make each other laugh. One liners, cheesy jokes, and goofy behavior were the norm at our supper table.
I remember years ago, my mom, my youngest brother and I feeding off of each other and cracking my SIL up with our humor. It is how we roll.
I think this is why I like writing. I can make my “reaction” to a bigger audience.
I used to a write a blog about being a single mom. I started it after my divorce and needed a place to process. I realized I liked when people did react to things I wrote.
Now that I have written a couple of (yet to be published) books, I can’t wait for the reaction to them when they are published!